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Thursday December 06, 2007
10:56 p.m.

1. We buried Grandma today. She went into the hospital last week and finally passed Monday morning. There was a mass and a grave-side service; they were both very nice. I did not strongly react to her imminent death; it’s been so long since we communicated at all with each other, and she and Mom were so estranged. So I didn’t really talk about it with anyone, didn’t tell anyone right away. Didn’t even think to call Bre, though I knew that the two of them were still close. It finally hit me when the priest mentioned that there would be no more hello’s. We all went to Phillipe’s afterward. I just came back here around 4:00, didn’t bother going into work. Chris and I got into a good conversation, and I ended up at my art class.

2. There is a serious amount of hot ass around Westwood. It is ridiculous, distracting, and frustrating that I keep looking. I always feel so lecherous. Especially Vanessa in my art class, with the perfect body.

3. I know that was a fast transition from funeral to hot ass, but the second is more recent in time. And I feel like unless I sit down and right it all out like a story that I wouldn’t do it justice. So I hit these main things, things that would trigger the actual memories later. But so much gets left out, like holding Bre through the Mass, and being a pall bearer, and Charles the driver, and sort of reconnecting with Aunt Jannette.

4. April and I had another great conversation last night. Talked about my classism, presumptive guilt, relationships and their analysis.

5. Sean spearheaded an effort to take me out to dinner on Tuesday night, which was nice. He also got me a gift (that Chris chipped in half on): an iHome! We tried going to Eddie’s Diner in the marina, but it’s been closed down. So we ended up at Tony Roma’s; they picked up dinner for April and myself. It was a great birthday all around; lots of birthday wishes.

6. On Tuesday, Eddie and I met with most of the reps to discuss the phone systems. There’s a lot of frustration there amongst the staff about how much work they have to do and how much they are (not) listened to. Thankfully, they were good with all of my recommendations to senior staff. I knew then that it would be an easy victory. And then yesterday at the senior staff meeting they were all approved. Changes will be made very soon, and my credibility is set. Work-wise, those two days were fantastic and extremely productive.